Like many other families waiting to get that ever so anticipated court date, we sit here with burning anxiety and fear that its just not going to happen right now. We are keeping our faith that God's timing is always perfect, but the pain of knowing that with the closing of the courts for a summer recess, we may now be delayed another several weeks in bringing our babies home.
My heart breaks when I look at their pictures. I can still hear the sound of their sweet giggles and feel the beat of their heart as I held them close to me. I lay awake at night worrying that they are in pain, or sick, or hungry, or scared, or lonely. I am suppose to be their comfort....I am their mommy. I don't question but I do hurt. I am not angry but I am worried. I admit, I have had a rush of many emotions lately. I know their needs are great and I know they need me....I can feel it! We cover them in prayer daily. It breaks my heart to sit at the dinner table with our family and feel that someone is missing (make that 2 someones). We all feel it. The children repeatedly ask..."How much longer??" That question burns in my head...How much longer?? And yet I know that God holds the answer in His hand.......I know that He is holding our sweet Avery and Caden in His hand. So...until that sweet GOTCHA day, We will just keep pressing on and trusting in God's perfect will and timing.
July 5, 2012
May 26, 2012
I-800 approved!!
We are so excited...we have our I-800 approval and have completed all our second stage paperwork and updated medicals!! Now to get those apostilles and it will be off to Bulgaria......and then we wait. You would think that we would be used to this waiting but it just doesn't get any easier. We are praying that things move quickly and we can get back to pick up our babies before summer's end.
We have also been blessed with more donations from our church family. We are now half way to being fully funded for our second trip. We truly believe that when you honor God, He will honor you. It is our mission to honor him in all we do. We feel so blessed to be given this wonderful opportunity....we get to be Avery and Caden's mommy and daddy....what a special blessing!!
Please continue to pray that our fundraising will be successful and that our process will move quickly. Our sweet little girl desperately needs surgery for her cleft palate. We are also concerned about the hip dislocation and each passing day is one more day with no medical care for these issues. We know that God is watching over our sweet babies and that His timing is perfect.
Thank you all for your support........what a blessing this journey has been and will be!! The best is yet to come!!
We have also been blessed with more donations from our church family. We are now half way to being fully funded for our second trip. We truly believe that when you honor God, He will honor you. It is our mission to honor him in all we do. We feel so blessed to be given this wonderful opportunity....we get to be Avery and Caden's mommy and daddy....what a special blessing!!
Please continue to pray that our fundraising will be successful and that our process will move quickly. Our sweet little girl desperately needs surgery for her cleft palate. We are also concerned about the hip dislocation and each passing day is one more day with no medical care for these issues. We know that God is watching over our sweet babies and that His timing is perfect.
Thank you all for your support........what a blessing this journey has been and will be!! The best is yet to come!!
April 30, 2012
I Am Still Here!!
Please forgive me for just leaving you all hanging. :) After a very long exhausting flight home, we had to get right back into the swing of things on Monday morning....back to work! We had trouble with sleep the first 2 nights in Bulgaria and then the same trouble for 2 nights after returning home. Nothing like lying in bed wide awake when you know that you have to get up at 6am the next morning...ugh! That's that wonderful thing called jet lag, but no amount of jet lag could have kept me from making that trip. I would go again this weekend if they told me I could come and pick up my babies.
This is truly the hard part....holding them, hugging them, and getting so attached to them....and then having to leave them. Wow...I had no idea it would be so painful to leave. But Jeff and I are on a mission. We have completed our I-800 and now we are working on a new form that our state requires for the homestudy agency. There is just always one more piece of paper, one more form, but I know that it will all be worth it in just a few months. We are pressing forward as quickly as we can and praying that we can get back as quickly as possible.
We know they both will need some medical intervention very quickly after we get them home. Our daughter desperately needs that cleft palate repaired and she has a hip dislocation that will need attention asap!
Thank you all for following our journey, for your support, and especially for your prayers. It is so disheartening to know that the devil will try to interfere in such a Godly mission. I am amazed at how evil tries to slip in....even in the Anonymous form. But Jeff and I know that God prevails...that we are following his will for our lives and our family, and we will not be discouraged, nor will we allow evil to stand in our way. We are so thankful for such a wonderful adoption community where we have found great support, love, and friendship. There is no greater joy than knowing God holds us in his hand and he promises to never leave us.
This is truly the hard part....holding them, hugging them, and getting so attached to them....and then having to leave them. Wow...I had no idea it would be so painful to leave. But Jeff and I are on a mission. We have completed our I-800 and now we are working on a new form that our state requires for the homestudy agency. There is just always one more piece of paper, one more form, but I know that it will all be worth it in just a few months. We are pressing forward as quickly as we can and praying that we can get back as quickly as possible.
We know they both will need some medical intervention very quickly after we get them home. Our daughter desperately needs that cleft palate repaired and she has a hip dislocation that will need attention asap!
Thank you all for following our journey, for your support, and especially for your prayers. It is so disheartening to know that the devil will try to interfere in such a Godly mission. I am amazed at how evil tries to slip in....even in the Anonymous form. But Jeff and I know that God prevails...that we are following his will for our lives and our family, and we will not be discouraged, nor will we allow evil to stand in our way. We are so thankful for such a wonderful adoption community where we have found great support, love, and friendship. There is no greater joy than knowing God holds us in his hand and he promises to never leave us.
April 12, 2012
Day 11- 4th day with Caden
I can't believe that it is already Thursday and we have only 1 more visit with our boy. It has been a good week of visits and we have seen him warm up to us more and more each day. It will be so hard to leave Bulgaria on Saturday and know that we are leaving our babies behind. We rest in the peace of knowing that our Heavenly Father will be watching over them.
Chavdar has been great...he has made sure we had opportunities for sightseeing and tasting different Bulgarian foods. We have enjoyed experiencing Bulgaria's beauty and culture. It is evident, however, as we have driven through these Bulgarian towns and villages, that we take much for granted in our beautiful America. How do we become so complacent? How do we become so ungrateful? We can never imagine how much we take for granted! God has truly opened our eyes. We must never cease to give thanks!
Forgive me for not posting yesterday. My heart has been broken for our sweet boy. I guess I have found it difficult to type through the tears what has been on my heart. He is so thin and his muscles are weak, but he has the smile of an angel. Many people have asked us WHY? Why, at our age, have we decided to embark on this journey. Well, now I can tell them....No, I can show them. You see this sweet child, one who against so many odds, has been quite a little survivor and he ask for nothing...not even a toy, but somehow, his eyes cry out for someone to just love him. He has refused our gifts of toys...he just pushes them away, but when we hold him close and tight, he melts into us. His body is so small and frail, but his determination is strong. As I held him close today, I whispered to him...Mommy and Daddy are coming for you sweet boy...stay strong, it won't be long.
Chavdar has been great...he has made sure we had opportunities for sightseeing and tasting different Bulgarian foods. We have enjoyed experiencing Bulgaria's beauty and culture. It is evident, however, as we have driven through these Bulgarian towns and villages, that we take much for granted in our beautiful America. How do we become so complacent? How do we become so ungrateful? We can never imagine how much we take for granted! God has truly opened our eyes. We must never cease to give thanks!
Forgive me for not posting yesterday. My heart has been broken for our sweet boy. I guess I have found it difficult to type through the tears what has been on my heart. He is so thin and his muscles are weak, but he has the smile of an angel. Many people have asked us WHY? Why, at our age, have we decided to embark on this journey. Well, now I can tell them....No, I can show them. You see this sweet child, one who against so many odds, has been quite a little survivor and he ask for nothing...not even a toy, but somehow, his eyes cry out for someone to just love him. He has refused our gifts of toys...he just pushes them away, but when we hold him close and tight, he melts into us. His body is so small and frail, but his determination is strong. As I held him close today, I whispered to him...Mommy and Daddy are coming for you sweet boy...stay strong, it won't be long.
The smile of an angel!!
April 10, 2012
Day 9-Caden Day 2
Today was an even better day. Caden is warming up more and allowing us to hold and hug him without so much resistance. We took him for Visa pics today and he was so good...he did seem a little scared but we enjoyed him clinging to us! He is a very sweet boy with a sweet disposition. He is very small so I guess we should plan for baby clothes for he and Avery! We appreciate all the kind comments from everyone. Your prayers and support have sustained us through this trip. I am including pictures from today's visit and a few from our sightseeing adventures. I wish I could share them all. There are so many beautiful sights here in Bulgaria. We feel so blessed to be sharing this journey with you all!
I will share more of Bulgaria tomorrow and of course more pics of our sweet boy. We are hoping for a warm day to take him outside. For now, it is very late, so I am off to bed.
Blessings,
Wendy
Mt. Vitosha in Sofia
There are peacocks living in the yard of our hotel.
The Balkin Mountain Range view from our hotel
Blagoevgrad
Old town Blagoevgrad...the architecture was amazing
I will share more of Bulgaria tomorrow and of course more pics of our sweet boy. We are hoping for a warm day to take him outside. For now, it is very late, so I am off to bed.
Blessings,
Wendy
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